Last week was a KILLER week. I felt good, I had tons of energy, I killed it at the gym, and I had multiple days with more than 20k steps. I even asked myself, "Is 20k my new 'normal'?" With my recent wager on Healthy Wage that I'd lose at least 40 more pounds in the next 6 months and the 250k Transformation Challenge, I was pushing...and pushing hard! Sunday isn't on the schedule as there aren't any classes, but Alan and I had a great gym day Sunday as well.
Monday morning (this week) I got up for yoga and thought I was good to go for another big day at the gym to start the week. About half way through class my body decided to push back and my lower back and knees began to ache. I took it easy for the rest of class, spent some extra time in Balasana, and hoped it wasn't a sign that I was getting sick. I decided to head home and come back for my favorite non yoga class, Strike Force. I powered through but was definitely not my usual spunky self. I use to nap a lot when I was sedentary and abusing my body with food. I haven't needed to since I changed my bad habits to good, healthy habits. I laid down Monday after Strike and slept for 4 hours. I felt like SHIT!
I posted this in our city weight loss challenge group:
Matthew Reiter, the Fitness Coordinator from Copper Sky and Admin of the group page said:
For the most part, I have just listened to my body along the way. It's been pretty good about letting me know when I need a day off and I've been good about respecting the requests. For this reason, I don't schedule a designated rest day. Some of the highlights from the article and signs that I was indeed overtraining include: fatigue, depression (though that didn't hit me until later in the week), muscle soreness, weight loss plateaus, abnormal hunger or cravings for sweets, and back, knee, ankle, and foot injuries.
What did my FAT BRAIN decide to do with this information? I used it as an excuse to completely throw my week away. I say completely but, it wasn't anything like my former bad behaviors. I just wasn't my usual die hard self and had a lot more time to sit around thinking about food so therefore put more in my face than I usually do.
Last week: 16 classes, lots of lifting, many gains in the gym, felt awesome.
This week: 5 classes, lots of HULU, many excuses, felt...HORRIBLE.
Self talk this week:
"Why do you even bother trying?"
"You'll never beat this thing."
"You're a big, fat failure...like always."
"You're going to lose and look like a fool."
YO! FAT BRAIN:
I try to remind myself:
"You can do this!"
"You don't suck. You've done awesome!"
"You can beat this because you ARE beating it."
"You're not a failure, look how far you've come."
"You're not going to lose anything but weight."
I haven't had to fight my FAT BRAIN for a while. It was tough in the beginning but I've had a pretty good run.
We had an event at our home tonight and I saw a lot of people that I haven't seen in a very long time. Their compliments and kudos reminded me just how far I've come. I was browsing Facebook the other day and came across a picture of my beautiful friend Faith and I out to dinner a few years ago. Holy COW! I can't believe that was me.
I am certainly not THAT girl anymore. I definitely didn't undo in one bad week all that I've accomplished in the last 7 1/2 months. I am looking forward to putting this week behind me and excited for a much better week. I promise to enjoy some down time along the way.
"You may have a fresh start at any moment you choose, for this thing that we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down." - Mary Pickford.