Why haven't I blogged (here...personally) since November of last year? It's FREAKIN' AUGUST!
There is no excuse. I could tell you that I've been BUSY! I have. I opened a yoga studio. WOW! WHAT? Right? We'll get back to that in another post. But, if you haven't already...check it out. There is a blog on the studio page but it's not up close and personal to my journey like this one is. https://freedomfitnessandyoga.com/
There is absolutely no legitimate reason for ignoring this blog. I could easily spend five to ten minutes a day, a few days a week to keep this updated. I should. The longer I procrastinated, the more I felt like a failure...once again...and just kept avoiding it.
In the last post I said, "Gurumukh asked, "Why are you in pain?" I told him because of the accident/injury/complications, ...I dunno. He looked deeper and asked again, "No,...why do you choose this pain?" I didn't know the answer at the time. I think I do now. BUT, this blog is getting REALLY LONG. So, I'll explain more details about what I have since found out about my injury tomorrow."
What happened to that tomorrow? Why didn't I follow up? I came back from Bali with so many mixed emotions. Dealing with that sort of injury not only affects you physically but mentally as well. It really is a mind fuck. Sorry, not sorry for the language. Just keeping it real.
I'll get back to the details...FOR REALLY REALS THIS TIME...in an upcoming blog. I really just need to vent about my behavior, bad habits, faulty programming, and fat brain in this blog.
This morning's "Daily Om" by Madisyn Taylor says, "In a world where we have routines for nearly everything--our route to work, our physical fitness regimen, and our weekday schedule--it's amazing how many people forget to create a routine for meeting their spiritual needs. We run around in an attempt to be at our many appointments on time and meet our many obligations. In our efforts to be as productive as possible, however, our spiritual needs tend to take a backseat. After all, taking care of our spiritual needs doesn't directly pay the bills or tone our abdominal muscles. We may even wonder who has time to meditate or write in their journal when there are more pressing matters to see to. The truth is that nurturing ourselves spiritually is what gives us the energy and grounding that we need to make sure that our lives stay on track."
When I read it, my first thought was, "BITCH... you need to BLOG!" For a long time this blog was my journal. I don't write in one though I often set intentions to. My Facebook is like an almost daily diary and this was more for my organized thoughts. I have missed it. I have thought of it numerous times, but continued to dismiss it. I've done much the same to my body lately.
I have lost a little more, wavered and put it back on, lost, gained, and so on and so on. For the most part, I have maintained my weight for the entire last year without any further progress. Sometimes I have to remind myself that not totally quitting and gaining the weight back is still progress but, there are still things I want to achieve with my body. Physically, anatomically, esthetically, etc.
So, here's Step #1 to getting back to me. I have made the studio and others my priority lately. I LOVE giving to so many through the studio/yoga/events/etc. and making sure others needs are met but...I can't do that at my own expense. I just can't. I need to get back to me being the priority and then sharing the best of me with others as I can. It's a must.