I said I would get back to this, so that's what I'm here to do.
I wrote in my Bali recap:
"Gurumukh asked, "Why are you in pain?" I told him because of the accident/injury/complications, ...I dunno. He looked deeper and asked again, "No,...why do you choose this pain?" I didn't know the answer at the time. I think I do now. BUT, this blog is getting REALLY LONG. So, I'll explain more details about what I have since found out about my injury tomorrow."
First, I'll tell you a little about Gurumukh Singh. He was our Yoga Philosophy Instructor. Our...Guru. "A meditation master from Chandigarh, India. Gurumukh grew up living in a yoga ashram and left to learn how the rest of the world lives. He now helps people all over the world integrate the ancient teachings of yoga and meditation into a modern, urban lifestyle. He is known for delivering life’s deepest truths with the spirit of a young child."-YogaEastWest.com
He encouraged us to look deeper without complicating the query. He was humble, kind, genuine, and quiet...until he found something funny. Take a look.
So, why did I "choose" to spend more than half of my yoga teacher training in excruciating pain? I believe I needed to know that I had some serious alignment issues that needed to be dealt with. I think I was very fortunate to discover that I needed a lot of correction in my C-spine before suffering something even worse...a broken neck, paralysis,...death?!
I came home from Bali and immediately scheduled an appointment with a chiropractor. I gave him the run down of what happened (no activity to lots of activity, bump on the head, protein deficiency) and showed him the x-rays. Without hesitation he asked if I was born vaginally or via c-section; I responded I was a breech caesarean delivery. He said, "The bump on the head didn't do this...it's not enough. This is serious compression and you've likely been living with it your entire life. The bump just set it off. Your C 4-7 are fully compressed and C 1-2 are totally rotated." Without that first lengthening and extension of the spine through vaginal birth, many c-section babies suffer alignment issues. It's not something I'd ever even thought of before. Hmm, probably the source of the many migraines I've dealt with in my life. In hopes of avoiding surgery we began adjustments every two days.
I saw my chiropractor, took MANY pain pills, iced it, used the inversion table, got massages,...anything and everything I could to find some relief. It took weeks before it started to improve but thankfully, it did.
So, I feel like if it hadn't been addressed, I could have easily injured myself much worse at some point. One of the things I've really wanted to be able to do with my yoga practice is inversions. But now, I don't aspire to put that kind of pressure on my head and neck. So instead I purchased a "FeetUp Trainer" for the studio. "Enjoy all the benefits of inversions right away without pressure on your neck or spine! Expand your yoga practice with confidence, fun and freedom."-www.feetup.com
This allows me to get upside down without putting any pressure on my c-spine. It feel fabulous. I'm working on my core strength so I can get my booty off the wall. It's a work in progress.
I can't say that I'm grateful for my pain, but perhaps I'm grateful for the awareness. I am filled with gratitude for all those that helped me through this pain.
My husband for being completely supportive and putting up with lots of whining and complaining.
My chiropractor for being extremely knowledgable and correcting this issue so I didn't have to seek surgical options.
The staff of East+West Yoga for allowing me to take care of myself and still finish my training.
Particularly, Caitlin for taking me to the clinic, sitting by my side, making sure I received the medical attention I needed, and advocating for me in a land she was far more familiar with.
And of course, Doug. My driver that became a dear friend. (So looking forward to seeing him when we return to Bali next month.)
Oh yah, I'M GOING BACK TO BALI! Sheilynn and Blake are going with me and I'm redoing my beautiful Bali adventure.
Next blog, I'll tell you a little about the yoga studio!